1 Between the rhetoric of changes and what was going on in the framework of restructuring the institution, a break, which grew deeper and deeper, appeared. Like crack-ups within the everyday life of embodiyng the institution.
2 a relevant quotation: "I want to intervene, before I reproduce the wrong institution. If we just continue doing it the way we do, then we produce something, we don't feel happy with in the end. And I personally think, this is what you get tired from. I am tired of repeating the same."
3 the contradiction, the inner conflict that makes us be exhausted and desperate
4 we should remember that professionalism in our field is also a collaboration with a human being, with a co-worker, with a living artist - an ideal would be an attitude combining strength and professionalism with elegance and cordiality.
5 corporeal and emotional institution
how is the distinction between the person and the office it holds reflected emotionally within the very functioning of an institution
6 the phantasy of good and bad emotional institutions. that are inside of me and that struggle: Do they eat me up from the inside or do they give me comfort?
7 book of tears
8 It's me: I felt so ashamed and guilty. I felt ridiculised with my needs. And the rest was neglected.
9 did You ever consider the colective managment of institution to avoid any frustration?
10 I thought I will go inside the institution, to change it from within. But now I realize that the institution is inside of me and is killing me slowly from the inside.
11 is it always a struggle? Between me and institution which threatens me?
12 the difference between terms "embodiment" and "incarnation"
13 is it always a struggle? Between me and institution which threatens me?
at the same time we also long for a form of working together, for a form of organisation that brings a group of people together in a lasting structure. that is not completely spontaneous, but instead reliable. So there is also a desire for the institution, no?
14 the institution is a bodily experience: we probably want too much but we do not want to continue as it is right now. that's the dilemma, the incapacity to embody the contradictions along with the constant inner demand to respond to them
15 and here is the origin of the institution: Louvre's mother was a guillotine (Georges Bataille)
16 good - aesthetics of organisation
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